Elliot Page has said that the creation of the film Juno “literally almost killed him.”
The film was released in 2007 and tells the story of teenager Juno who becomes pregnant.
Page played the pregnant teenager who decides to continue school and carry the baby for an adoptive couple.
13 years later, in 2020, the actor publicly came out as a transgender man with his memoir Pageboy became an instant Sunday Times bestseller last year.
Page in Juno. (Searchlight Pictures)
The film was a huge success upon its release and received four Academy Award nominations, including Best Actress for Page.
But even though the film did so well, Page was having a lot of trouble at the time and “didn’t know how to talk about it.”
“During awards season, I had been unable to pretend, wearing high heels and the whole look – I was not feeling well and I didn’t know how to talk to anyone about it,” he wrote in Esquire.
“I can’t name a ‘worst’ day. But if Juno exploded – that sounds weird to people and I understand that people don’t understand it. Oh, fuck you, you’re famous and you have money and you had to wear a dress, cry. I do not not understand this reaction.
“But that’s mixed with: I wish people would understand that this shit literally almost killed me.
“…I lived life and my dreams came true and all that happened. And yet, for example, when I was filming StartI could practically not leave the hotel where I was staying.”
Since his sex change and having once again lived his true self in public, Page has told anecdotes from his life in his memoirs Pageboy last year. After the release, Page confessed that he “loves acting again.”
“Thank God,” he said.
“I found it difficult to imagine the future and what it would look like.
“In a body where I feel at home and can be present, it inspires me more creatively and artistically.”
Page about the filming of Juno opened (Phillip Faraone/FilmMagic)
In her memoir, Page also talked about a relationship he had with co-star Olivia Thirlby.
He said: “I was surprised when I saw Olivia Thirlby. She seemed so much older, more capable and more composed.
“Sexually open, far from where I was at the time. But the chemistry was palpable, it drew me in.”
Page continued, “It started. I had an all-encompassing desire for her, she aroused desire in me in a way that was new and hopeful.”
He said it was one of the first times someone had made him orgasm.
Page also claimed that he and Olivia had sex “all the time” while filming “Juno,” and recalled the places where they allegedly became intimate.
“Her hotel room, in our trailers at work, once in a tiny, private room at a restaurant… We thought we were being subtle. Being intimate with Olivia helped me banish my shame. I didn’t see a hint of shame in her eyes and that’s what I wanted – I didn’t want to feel miserable anymore about being who I am,” he wrote.